I find out that I really do not understand this guy who just become my closest man in my life. He is suppose to love and care about me for anything. But things had changed. I still rememberred how much he care about me when we just in love in year 20o6.
We will never complaint about anything. For me, he is so perfect and gentlement. From time to time, he will bring me surprices. Always make me feel touches of his actions. I thought he will be more loving after we got married. This is all my only one side thinking. He had stop said sweet words with me. He had stop singing for me. He had stop worried about me. Even the housework also he wont volunteer to do. Because he got no time. All his time had been reserved by the computer.
Now, everyday we will have same routine. After reached home, I will do all the housework (cleaning room, washing clothes / toilets, sweep or mop the floor). At the same time, he will directly sit on his chairs for at least 3 hours. Surfing fb, websites or blogs. Then start complaint about stress of bloging.
Then I will do nothing or watch my drama. At 12am, I will have to sleep with the light open. I dont understand why cant he care about his health.
And today, without any reason I got scolded from him. He dont know how much fear I had at this moment. Already two weeks, but my condition is yet to recover. The longer the bleeding is the longer my body going to recover. And as expected, some1 is going to complaint again as I cant have sex with him. But he wont know that the longer this condition going on, the danger it will be to the wife.
I thought when we married to someone that we love, he will fulfil his promised. Loving and care for you forever by proven action and not my saying. I really missed the man he was. God, this is just start of our life. I want to have a lovely family. Not the life we have now.
Why cant he kept his promise? Why event is his priority now? He will be angry if late for event. But he will not be angry if he late for meeting his wife. He will be happy if got event invitation. But he will not be that happy when he meet his wife after work.
God god. I pray for the man I knew to return. Would you give him back to me? What can I do to get him back? Or this is people call married life?